I'm Just Being A Negative Nelly

My blog is literally the debbie downer of blogs. This semester has been the worst. I have been getting sick on and off and then with the accident I was without a car for a month and a half. Then this easter break none of my family came to my house like we usually do. My mom found out her first cousin died on Easter in his apartment. The police found him on the floor in his bedroom. She has been strong through the whole grieving process, but we will all be a mess this weekend at the wake and funeral. We're having a small get together in his honor as well similar to shiva. It's like the shiva for Italians.

On top of all of this my allergies are so bad that I feel like I am slowly dying. My throat closed up the other day and I went to the doctor because I could barely breathe or talk and the doctor said it was allergies. I have been set back in my work because of the oral surgery (wisdom teeth) and now that the pollen is so high I can't focus because I'm on all this allergy medicine and other medications like antibiotics for my mouth. I just went through a box of tissues because my nose won't stop running. I have to present tomorrow in this class and I don't even know if I will have a voice. It keeps coming and going and it's annoying because I'll think I'm fine and then I go to talk to someone and my voice cracks as if I were a thirteen year old boy. I just want this semester to end.

I got an email from my spanish teacher and as of right now I am failing my spanish class. It's funny to think I was just on the Dean's List last semester and now I'm failing a class. He says I don't do much in class or outside of class, which is entirely not true. Instead of putting the blame on himself he blames the students. I asked him repeatedly for help and I got no response until now.

I babysat today and got into little fights with a two year old. I think it's because she doesn't know what to say so she gets frustrated when I do something that she didn't ask for? I don't know, but it drives me crazy. Her Mom spoils her when she comes home from the gym not knowing her daughter threw several temper tantrums while I was there. I guess that's why they call it "Terrible Two's." Anyways I need to get my work done =(