Well Overdue

I can't stop thinking about Food. Inc. I'm really upset. I haven't been eating much. The only protein I ate was sushi. To be honest I hate that I watched that movie. I was blind and naive about how the meat industries are treating animals, but as selfish as this sounds I was happy living that way. I was talking to one of my friends who has been Vegan for a good portion of her life and she is a strong activist and has been showing me videos of poorly treated animals. There is a documentary called Earthlings and the video is on Earthlings.com. I couldn't finish watching it. I saw a man stand on a dogs head to kill the dog and he bled through his nose and his skull was crushed. Is this really the world we live in? It's disgusting and unforgivable. Animals were put on this world to live as we do and yes I believe in the circle of life, but we don't need eggs, milk, and meat to survive. I barely got through the preview of Earthlings before I closed my laptop and burst into tears. I'm a big animal lover. I've rescued baby bunnies in the woods behind my house and set them free without imprinting and I have two dogs I play with every day when I come home from school. I grew up being allergic to chicken, pork, beef, milk and eggs and it's probably because of all the drugs and hormones that they inject the animals with. I outgrew most of my allergies except milk, but even if I was allowed to eat things with dairy I wouldn't. All day I just thought about how those chickens have never seen daylight and can't run around like a normal chicken would. I'm so shook up by all of this. I don't know what else to think...